søndag den 17. marts 2013

Hvileløse hjerte

Hvor vil du hen?
Hvornår får du,
det godt igen?
Tænker for meget.
Kan ik' gi' slip.
Voksenlivet kalder
Hvornår kan jeg
redde mig selv?

Jeg er gammel og træt,
jeg er træt af
at være træt

NÅ men der er en ny dag i morgen, så nu vil jeg tage mit trætte, hvileløse hjerte og endnu trættere hjerne med i seng. God nat.

onsdag den 20. februar 2013

Hovedrengøring/Spring cleaning

In English below:
Nøj manner, hvor kan man komme dybt ind i krogene i sådan en hovedrengøring. Har fået taget HELE stuen nu bortset fra inde i skabene, hvilket godt -kan- vente lidt. Det er ikke det der haster aller mest. Og hold da op hvor kan sådan nogle kroge og paneler under radiatorer og lignende gemme på meget støv. Og så er der en gammel udsugning i køkkenet. Hov. Den var da ikke brun.  Den var da hvid. For real.

Min dejlige kusine kom forbi og hjalp til og det er bare skønt. Man når dobbelt så meget for det første og for det andet er det meget mere hyggeligt. Nu venter jeg på en vasketid her om små 20 minutter og så får jeg også vasket måtterne og badeforhænget. Skønt!

Det var også planen med de her fridage, som jeg har tre af op til weekenden. I morgen byder på en aftale i en potentiel ny bank og en tur til lægen og så skal der mere hovedrengøring på menuen. Det er min plan - nok i morgen - at vaske hele badeværelset ned fra loft til gulv, selvfølgelig inklusive skabe og brusekabinen skal afkalkes.

Og så' det weekend :o)

I går aftes var jeg til min første samtale hos en psykolog. Jeg har haft nogle ting at tumle med, som blev forstærket af stress på arbejdet og omvendt. Hun virkede rigtig god. Altså rigtig, rigtig god.

Og lige om lidt... faktisk næsten allerede nu... er det weekend.
God weekend!
--
Sheesh, a spring cleaning can really reveal some dusty old corners. I seriously thought the dust might grow even thicker as I looked at it and become alive and try to eat me. Yikes. I've managed to clean most of the living room, as well as the hallway and some in kitchen.

My wonderful cousin cam by to help - such a sweetheart. Double the work done! And it's more cozy too :o) Now I'm waiting for a laundry time and then I will have wasked the mats and the shower curtain too. Great!

And then it's weekend!

Yesterday I had a first meeting with a therapist. I've had some mess messing with me. It got worse due to the stress at work and vice versa. So now it's time to get some outside assistance.

And in just a moment... well actually already now.. it's weekend.

Have a nice weekend.

søndag den 20. januar 2013

Hausfrau - nu med links og brugbar fryser

Søvnløsheden, eller søvnforstyrrelserne, spøger stadig. I nat lå jeg vågen i 3 - 4 timer. Den eneste fordel ved i nat var, at det i dag var søndag. Så kan jeg godt være træt og yde mindre end på en hverdag. Jeg fungerer jo, jeg både går og står og lige nu er jeg i gang med at afrime fryseren. Jeg tænker bare langt fra ligeså godt, når jeg ligger vågen de der timer, hvilket er næsten hver nat.

Men hey, jeg nævnte jo lige helt tilfældigt, at jeg er i gang med at afrime fryseren. Jeg LOVER hermed hele verden og mig selv, at jeg aldrig lader det gå tre år igen. Fremover skal den afrimes en gang om året eller to.

Dette link har været mit favoritlink den sidste måneds tid. Den gælder kun en lille måneds tid endnu, så tjek den livestream ud mens I kan: http://new.livestream.com/FosterKittenCam/RipleysKittens

Og så er det skarpt efterfulgt af dette youtube link, som min kæreste har sendt til mig. Årh altså. Årh altså!


tirsdag den 13. november 2012

Ich bin müde

Ich bin müde. Det er tttyyyyssskkk og betyder jeg er træt.

Jeg er træt.

Klokken er 19 og jeg går snart i seng.

Jeg er træt. Jeg er træt af at være træt. Jeg overvejer at sige det til min læge, men jeg er også træt af at rende til lægen. Hvad kan de gøre alligevel?

Klokken er 19 og jeg går snart i seng. Skønherlige seng. Jeg har fået en ny madras - har jeg skrevet det? Jeg er træt. Man ligger som på en drøm. Åh så god og blød. Det er den bedste seng jeg nogensinde har købt i hele mit liv. Det var også den dyreste. Man kan godt mærke det. Blød og alligevel hård.

Aaah nu gør det lige pludselig ikke noget, at jeg er så træt.

Godnat derude.

mandag den 12. november 2012

100%

50% Human
50% Coffee
100% Angry at the world

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I could really use this day off work. I really need to excersize. I wish I had this day off and I would just go to the gym and excersize myself to death. Sometimes I really hate you, world. Or I don't (sorry for my frustration there, world). But I am just really angry for some reason. Also I received an e-mail and the person sounds quite arrogant and pretty much like an asshole. WHY do you have to be such an asshole, asshole?

Luckily today I have to leave at noon because I have a huge delivery at home between 13 and 17: My new madras is arriving. How awesome is that! I hope they come at 13 so I can go to the gym like NOW.

lfdkjklafjdlæakfhlæafkjæaflyou!

Ps check out this awesome picture: It's me and Leif at his last concert with the surfing hencmen. He is now focussing on the world state. I have to check them out. Click on the pic.




mandag den 6. august 2012

One of those days

Today is one of those days. One of those days where everything seems grey. Hold on, it is fucking grey. There is heavy rainclouds and they're grey. Everywhere you look: Grey. It feels like the heavy clouds pushes everything down to the ground. My shoulders and my mood.

It's one of those days where I'd like to pack my backpack and leave everything behind. Travel the world for some months. No facebook. God, I wish I would spend less time on Facebook. It might be easier then to relate to other people in real life. Why not just spend less time on facebook then? why not drink less and spend less money when that is what I also need? Why is it so difficult to be the change I want to be.

Today is one of the days where it becomes clear that I actually have changed, but in a less good manner. I tend to blame other people for when I am not feeling well. I lock it up inside and yet it comes out in a passive aggressive manner. "If only he or she [something]". "S/he will leave me anyway". "Who can love me anyway". It is a strange mixture of self-loathing, self-hating, low-self-confidence (blaming me) and blaming others.

I feel I have changed. It is more difficult for me to cope with changes and new situations and especially new people. My memory is not good. My stress-level is low. I don't know what to do. I have no idea. Hvad skal jeg stille op? It's like so many people have more difficulties relating to other people in real life. Maybe it is because there's so many of us (people)

Random thoughts. Pretty open blog. Now back to work.

fredag den 3. august 2012

What in the world...

What in the world will I do when the Olympics are over? I love it. Sport 24/7. Who would have thought I loved it? I cannot help being drawn to it. The tremendous sport-sly effort is appealing

Anyway, it is Friday night and I'm for once not out on the town which is quite unusual:
- I have to save my energy
- I have to save my finances
- Tomorrow morning I will get up early and paint my fathers summerhouse
- I am afraid that if I drink alcohol then I will also smoke
(I have quit smoking since I was sick, all though I have slipped, tripped and smoked twice)

And also I have been almost afraid of being home alone on a Friday evening. Tonight was the night I could test it. And is it all that bad? No siree, not at all. It is a nice change. Is it as cheap as I had expected? No, siree, not at all. I bought a book (250 kr), sushi (116 kr) and a painting from nuax (xxx kr) so now I'm fleeced again. Sigh.

Anyway, life is good and I am glad I staid at home. I am also glad that I am not smoking. It actually feels easier to breathe. I miss my boyfriend.